sad grrrl eats oatmeal and stares into the vanishing point

by Flower Politics

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Thank you so much to all who contributed towards my mother's valentines day gift. I love you all <3

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released September 26, 2014

Angela-Grace Foster

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Track Name: I didn't know it was going to be so cold
I didn't know it was going to be so cold

I was walking at night
you were the sunlight

I didn't know it was going to be so cold
I would have packed another sweater
Track Name: Perfect
sometimes people say I'm perfect
and it makes me want to die
I think they don't know how I stay up at night
and cry and cry
over dumb ass things
I think they don't know me
in real life
Sometimes people say I'm beautiful but I barely believe them
it makes me feel so useless to not be able to properly accept it
all I see is this pale individual staring back at me
with a few freckles too
I collect garbage and use it for useless art projects
I don't always brush my teeth before going to sleep
I trim my nails with scissors
I'm a gateway drug
I'll pick up bobby pins from the floor and stick them in my hair to hold myself together
sometimes when I'm sitting on the bus afterschool I think about the concept of time and how it never ends
and never stops to help you back up
it never stopped to help me learn how to properly tie my shoes
sometimes people say im perfect
Track Name: I'd wish we never met but then I wouldn't have listened to that one Elvis Depressedly song until I puked my soul and that was cool too
what makes you think I wont just walk away
what makes you
what makes you
what makes you think i'm glued in my chair to stay
what makes you
what makes you
what makes you cringe when you think of me
what makes you
what makes you
Why don't you leave my head
go to bed
go to bed
what makes you think I will contact you
in the future in the future
what makes you think that well be together
together
you said what we have is timeless
I'm drowning
I'm drowning
I don't believe a word
what makes you believe that we'll be best friends
that well be best friends
why cant you go out of my head
out of my head
I want to live in a submarine but I'm drowning already
I want to go on Halloween and get candy
and get candy
you said that I was sweet
what does that mean
what does that mean
and you never ever call me
what does that mean
what does that mean
I gave you flowers
I gave you all I could
but I know me
I know me
I know that we could never leave this city
as long as we're together
Track Name: I literally feel like I'm dying
I wake up feeling like nothing is real
and like I'm going to vomit
I'm so scared to go outside
I don't want to face people right now like this
I want you to understand but I don't want to scream it
I don't wanna scream it
some days are too much for my stomach
I don't know how to describe that I literally feel like I'm dying
maybe that would be better
because I wouldn't have to keep this
If I could just get over it, I promise you I would
my life I've been guilty for things that weren't really mine
I cant go outside without thinking I'm a burden
everything seems fake it seems so holographic
if I could just stop it I promise I would
I don't mean to come off as overdramatic
but I just can't look at you without wondering if you understand I love you
and that's so hard for me to say
and that's so hard for me to say
I wake up feeling like nothing is real
and my heart beats
and I'm panicked
and I'm sweating
and I want to die
I don't really understand why I cry
If I could make it stop
make it go away
I promise I would let you in
Track Name: not rlly real
last night I dreamt I was flying round corners
in this car without doors or seatbelts but I was happy cause you weren't there
and I've learned some things in my short almost 17 years
that this is not the end
this is not the end
or even the middle
Ill start over and I'll shake till my bones cry
and ache for some relief
I'll go out and tell the world that I am not fine
but that's ok cause I am me
everything is not as it seems
it's all just an alternate reality
and you will learn to breathe if you can get through the fumes of youth
I travel the streets and hope for a purpose
I go outside and I say hello to all the plants in the gardens
I try not to hurt you
and I try not to hurt me too
This isn't actually
It's really pretend
It's not really fake
and its not the end
Track Name: goodbye long eyes
rootbeer float soda and coca cola
chemical runoff down my esophagus
makes me nostalgic
for golf course hills and your eyes
on the full blood moon night
goodbye long brown eyes
goodbye lullabies
I don't remember you
because I don't want to

you'll never hear this
cause you cared to
you'll never hear this
you never cared to
you'll never hear this
cause you never cared to
you'll never hear this
Track Name: delusion
don't tell me it's not fair
don't go to bed
I will stay up and think
of how it should be
I turn my insides out
and try bleed it out
I will not be ok
you will probably be ok
don't tell me
it's all a fantasy
Some people believe in the bible
some people believe in scriptures
some people believe in dying
Don't tell me it's not real
I live alone in my head
and I will make up what I want to
I'll make up what I want to
Track Name: I can never get my eyebrows good
I can never get my eyebrows good
all the girls I know have perfect cat eyes
my thighs touch and my makeup sticks
I want to eat some cheese itz
I'm just a normal girl except I have a guitar
I just want to make stupid songs
I can never get my eyebrows good
I can never get my eyebrows good
all the girls at school think I should
Track Name: credits roll / I'm going to bed
my anxieties have anxieties
about you leaving
I never asked you to stay

I never asked you stay

you said you pictured us
laughing maniacally
I asked if you if you mean
manically or man I agree
and I agree
we are monsters
I knew we would kill
something